ugh.

miss wong wants to see my parents. wth!!

damnit. i 'll bet with my life that she'll tell them about me doing karib's work during mrs lim's class.

and i didn't even intend to show them my report book considering the fact that i failed three subjects. and one of them includes chinese.

shit. and all my hopes for going out during the hols will be dashed. i can so see that coming. and strings of shouting that sounds like '' you drop home ec and your score's still like that, you see? play play play, i won't let you go out.'' or something like ''what happened to you? don't think that your n levels is good so you slack, no going out anymore.'' wtf.

WTF!
WTF!

omg, im dreading saturday. ugh.

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anyway if you're wondering what the heck im doing online since it's thursday. well firstly cause, i went to school, on an empty stomach cause i was rushing! and ya-dah.
we had PE after that, and we ran round the canal twice, and i was like running, and stopping and running and stopping again and again. cause my hands didn't felt like hands and my legs felt as if they were like dangling away, i don't know how. but i just can't feel them.

so yea, went back, and since i didn't have a bottle, i just sat down and i saw white stuffs like flashing before me. -as if im gonna die. LOOL jk- so anyway! i dunno my head so spinning. and pris told me it's NORMAL CAN! wth! so since i thought it was normal i waited for it to go away. but it didn't! my headache got worst. and i started crying. wth! out of the blue. i started crying.

ugh. nevermind. so anyway i tried playing that ball thing with fengxian. and omg, i just can't hit a damn ball. haha, so i screwed it up. and rest. got back to class, and i thought a pie would add some suger into my system and make me feel better. but hell no. i felt so pale. lol. i don't know how to feel pale, but pale seems right.

so anyway, i went home! and once i left school i felt so much better! and my brother was like 'life starts after school.' hahaha.

we went home and then, i tried doing sudoku. and my brother said he can do sudoku without erasing. so i was like alright luh. i gave him the pen. and LOL. he finished it in no time. and with a pen. and his answers were like so right. stupid. we were watching some of jay chou's MTVs whilst doing sudoku. and his MTVs are really good.

after that, was watching my parents are aliens and now im here.
sigh. and fx messaged me about the parent-teacher-meeting thing. damn. im so dreading it.

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that aside. my mum told my brother yesterday that if he is going to australia to study, she will make me go along. to do none other than accounts. gosh. not that i don't mind the accounts thing. but i want to study in singapore! i mean i don't mind doing uni some where else. but at least i wanna try doing poly. or JC which is unlikely.

nevermind. im so screwed this week already. if i fail my o levels i can't go anywhere. so why bother planning. just study and study and study. so my mum will have nothing to say about my grades.

gosh. she can even complain about my n level grades. so even if i get straight As for o levels. she'll probably complain why i didn't top the school or what not.

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yesterday during kribbles tuition, i swear, i felt horribly dumb. i was stuck at 1(b) for like an hour? while everyone just went on to qns 3 or something. gosh. i have to do math. and more math.

ahhhh screw it all.

I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

i sound as if i'm lovelorn. but im not. just like the song. =)